June 11, 2012 to the Priests of our home ward

Make sure someone reads this with power! haahha... to the Priests of the Ammon 14th ward...

I want to let you all know one thing I have learned in my little time out here and that is conversion. What is true conversion? My whole life I thought I was good, because I was going to church, I told people I read, didn't really too much, if at all though and the same thing prayer. I was happy that the world and I didn't seem to be bumping heads too much I could be spiritual at times too. I thought I was almost all in the right, I knew what my real flaws were that others didn't but i justified them with all my might, which really showed where my desires were in myself. I cared about making my outward appearance good enough that people didnt give me a hard time, with as little effort as possible. I was not converted. A scripture usually applied to investigators can bring light to this, in Ether 12 its  says we dont recieve a witness of faith until after the trial of our faith. Ask yourselves if you have REALLY tried your faith, and not by someone saying a school that is full of mormons have no fun and you saying ya huh! If you are not listening WAKE UP and listen to this part! The blessing of growing up in the church is this: we know exactly what we need to do to recieve a true witness. Get on our knees, and with real intent a sincere heart and faith in Jesus Christ and in his name, give up the testimony that has been borrowed, cherish and cultivated but still borrowed, and plead with our loving Father in Heaven for one of your own OR what you need to do to get that.THE BIGGEST REGRET I have is not getting that sooner, luckily I did gain a testimony for myself shortly before my mission but if I had more time after that to be feasting in the word and growing that testimony my faith would be on a whole other level by now. Never be comfortable with your relationship with the Holy Ghost, Jesus Christ, and Heavenly Father because that is when Satan is comfortable with it too if your testimony isn't being tried much, you need to work harder on it, that is when you know if you doing what you should be, and don't let those trials slow you down, repeat lather rinse repeat, pray, study, act.DONT WAIT FOR THAT MOMENT. MAKE IT HAPPEN; and your quality of life will improve in EVERY aspect. I promise that with all my heart. I love you all and hope that you can learn something from me like you learn from the other wicked people in the scriptures, haha. work, the world tells you that its not needed but oh is it!!!! in the sacred name of my, yours, and our Savior Reedemer and mediator Jesus Christ AMEN.